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Mar
27
I Miss My Mom
Posted by 4T at 08:53 | Filed In Family After 40, Life After 40
I’m over 50, but I still miss my mom. She passed away when I was 33 and she was 60. Obviously, a lot has happened over the years; I have a wonderful husband and two great children. My children are adults now themselves and living on their own, but that tug to talk and confide in my mother sometimes springs up. I have no siblings and my dad has also passed and now and then I just feel lonely.
I feel that the burdens of my family are on my shoulders alone. I fear that my husbands cancer may return but I don’t need to stress my kids out with my thoughts. My daughter has her own health issues which requires many decisions that comes with its own bag of worries. She is a joy, and I can always chat with her, but it’s that burden thing. My son, who is a great person, and carries many responsibilities for someone his age, is not the type to sit around and discuss “feelings”. Sometimes you just want your mom to hug you and tell you that everything will be OK.
Many baby boomers are talking about being the sandwich generation (taking care of their parents and their children at the same time) and I did that too, but I was much younger and my children were babies. Boomers parents are probably in their 70’s and beyond and have hopefully enjoyed watching their grandchildren grow. My children don’t remember their grandparents and won’t have the pleasure of helping to take care of them in their aging years. It is not easy to care for sick or aging parents, but it’s also difficult to let them go and realize that their kisses and reassurances are gone too.
